Sunday, 7 November 2010

True Love...


Remember!
If your love for someone is true,
Then there is already a clear knowing of that person in you;
Where there is a clear knowing,
There is always a better understanding already in you;
You can’t have a better understanding,
Unless you had already seen that person clearly;
Where there is a clearer sight,
There is hardly a room for doubt;
But,
If there are doubts,
Then know that the love in your heart is not true;
These doubts will lead you to anguish,
And Anguish will eventually eat up your inner freedom;
Thus,
Whenever you have doubts,
Just be aware that you doubt;
And handle with someone,
Whose love for you has no bounds;
He is none but ONE
Who never had or will never have a doubt about you,
No matter who you were, what you are, and how you become;
He is your Creator Whom you often doubt and question,
Yet, whose love for you is indeed true,
And whose love knows no end.


Tuesday, 10 August 2010



         While life sustains honour, honour makes life worth living. It seems that there is a reciprocal relation between these two dimensions. Nevertheless, there is a marked distinction between them. While life survives even if it is not honoured, honour goes nonexistent in the absence of life. Then, what honour does a person gain by sabotaging his fellow human being?  How does a gotra preserve its honour by annihilating its own members? What is so honourable in Killing?
When the prince of Verona declared death penalty against the families of Romeo and Juliet, he did it with the intention of putting an end to the long running Montague/Capulet feud. But today, when the self-claimed, authoritarian, no-women-all-men panchayats issue their diktats against modern Romeos and Juliets, it is not because to put an end to caste (or gotra) division or rivalry distance that exists between them, but to reinforce it further through social alienation and excommunication often end up with barbaric assault and total annihilation. Is it what they mean by “honour killing”?
Then, why do we nail Hitler for ages in the history? Had he not done what he thought was right to protect honour? Are not our dictatorial Khap punchayats worse than Hitler? If honour is the sole reason for killing, then why only inter-caste or inter-religious marriages alone pay the prize? Why do we not line up all the prisnors and shoot them one by one for they have brought dishonour to our family, gotra, parampara, caste, Varna and entire nation?
“Honour killing” (or still worse “honour crime”), which is operated on the above mentioned key values- life and honour, is highly paradoxical that even the parliament of India has failed to define it yet. But, the perpetrators of this anti-life evil seem to know it well. Their stained swords and knives seem to have understood it fine. Victims of this brutal carnage are found in the soil of Haryana, western Uttar Pradesh, Punjab, rural Delhi and in south India, mainly Tamil Nadu, with no exception in Kolkata and Maharashtra.
When Rizwanur Rahman was cold bloodedly killed in Kolkata in September 2007, the plot had been undertaken by his Hindu-wife-priyanka’s father in cooperation with state law makers and their protectors to protect the honour of his family and status. When Manoj and Baoli couple was brutally tortured and killed in Kaithal district, Haryana in July 2007, and Ved Pal Maun, a 27 year old medical practitioner, was assassinated in Jind district, Haryana two years later in July 2009, diktats had been issued by respective Khap panchayats to protect the honour of their respective gotras. When Ravinder singh and family were blood-bathed in Maharashtra in may 1999, and Babitha, a 19 year old girl, was cold bloodedly massacre with her lover and his brother in Etah district in Uttar Pradesh in November 2008, diktats had been issued and executed by girl’s father to protect the honour of their families. When Delhi based Ravinder Gehlout, from Gehlout gotra, attempted suicide by consuming poison because he was denied his married Shilpa, from Kadym gotra in panipat district, just as Romeo from Montague family was denied his love, Juliet from Capulet family, and consumed poison, Honour killing, the Indian version of Romeo Juliet, made Shakespeare’s words come true: “The world is a stage and we are actors and actresses in it”
If Shakespeare were to be born today, will he be contented with the modifications done to his original version Romeo and Juliet? Or will he regret for setting an example, so influential and applicable? While Romeo and Juliet was based on the principle ‘live together or die together’, what principle the Indian edition of it is based on? Who to be blamed now, Shakespeare or khap panchayats?

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

What Do I Desire The Most In Life? 

          
            My religion teacher, a good Catholic Nun, asked me once: “Do you eat to live or live to eat?”. That in fact was the fist time in my life I felt that my purpose of living was questioned in a way I could cot excape from answering. I felt the urgeed to come up with a compulsory and convincing philosophy in life. I believe that everyone has to answer such similar existential questions in life at one point or another: ‘What am I doing on earth?’ or ‘What is the point of life?’ or ‘Is there any purpose to life?’
        Religion and spirituality in general deal with the ultimate concerns of people trying to illuminate upon some of the most profound queries of human beings such as the origin of life. As a result, one of the functions of any religious belief system or a spiritual worldview is to provide “an ultimate vision of what people should be striving for in their lives” (Pargament & Park, 1995, p. 15), and the strategies to reach those ends. Accordingly, our concerns, priorities and goals are signature determinants of our overall quality of life.
                One's progression toward and possession of these important life goals become essential for his or her both well-being and positive attitude towards life. At first glance, it might seem odd to speak of religious or spiritual goals in the same way one talks about carrier goals, health goals, and financial goals, etc. Sigmand Freud, Alfred Adler and Carl Jung, three leading psychologists of the 20thcentury, have different views about man’s striving. Accordingly, in the final analysis, for Freud, ‘people are hungry for love’. While for Adler, 'people are hungry for significance', for Jung, people are hungry for security. 
              However, we speak quite openly as well as increasingly today about one's 'spiritual quest' as an indeapth search into that sacred lieu which fills and satisfies one's 'existential vacuum'. To that extent, one can say that religious or spiritual goals are a person's internal desires towards that which he or she regards as the ultimate and, therefore, is voluntarily committed. In the 1980s and 1990s, when psychology saw an explosion of inventories in the field of religion, spirituality was defined as “a way of being and experiencing that which comes about through awareness of a transcendent dimension and that is characterised by certain identifiable values in regard to self, others, nature, life, and whatever one considers to be Ultimate” (Elkins, 1988, p.10). The multilevel approach to spirituality by Robert A. Emmons assumes that spirituality is multidimensional and is related to people’s subjective experience in distinct, though related, ways.
            So, why do I live for? What is my ultimate purpose in life? What do I desire the most in life? Is it love as Freud says, or significance as Adler says, or security as Jung says? Or, is it radically a different thing altogether, the one who says "I am the Bread of life", as he alone can quenche all quests in life for once and for all.

Tuesday, 1 July 2008

















මිළිනව ගිය හිරු අවරට වැටිලා 
රත්වූ පොළොවේ මාවත් පිරිලා 
රතු කහ කොළ එළි ඳැල්වි නිවීලා 
පේළි සැදී රිය සක් පෙරලීලා

කොප්පර හංඳියෙ පාර කඩිසරයි 
රතු ඳැල්වෙන විට මදකට නිසලයි 
වයභට පෙරළෙන සක් සැම නවතියි 
ඇය අත පාමින් රිය ඳොර අයදියි

පහන් කණුවෙ හිඳ ඇගෙ ඳුක කියනවා 
වියරු දෙපය ඇගෙ මහ ගව් ගෙවනවා 
කොළ ඳැල්වී රිය තිරිංඟ බිඳෙනවා 
රතු ඳැල්වෙන තුරු ඇය ඉකි බිඳිනවා

රිය අතගාමින් දෙපා යඳින්නේ 
රියතුළේ සීතල නැහැ ඇය දන්නේ 
එරුණු කිරේ දුක නැත අදුනන්නේ 
ඇගේ ඳුක නොදැනිම සක පෙරලෙන්නේ

Sunday, 25 March 2007

Maggie’s Tragedy - Short Story


          It was the threshold of winter. A cold wind was howling all around when Maggie laid herself down under the Margosa tree, with her children. The chiller it was in the beginning of the day, the warmer it became in the noon. Possibly, Maggie enjoyed the shadowy enclosure with her little ones more that day, than ever before.

Maggie came to Jiva Maidan as a forerunner, announcing the coming of the winter. Of course, she didn’t come empty. This year too, she arrived at the Maidan with her womb heavy, keeping the custom she followed, nearly, for the last three years. Oh! What a joy it was when her cute, little ones opened their tiny eyes, for the first time. Many of the bystanders, in fact, all, loved her company and motherliness, though it was not shown conspicuously. She was never left to starve. Some found their own ways to feed her, though it was not sanctioned.

Alas! Accursed be the day!  One unfortunate day, Maggie walked on the path of her destiny. The evening sun denied to witness it and made its way steeply downhill.

It was Monday. The Maidan battalion got onto their regular games field. Certainly, that day, their games were delayed for about a quarter of an hour. No doubt, all of them saw her lying under the tree. Many felt pity upon her while some turned their backs on her with loathing. A few among them had something special for her. All they wanted was, to do away with her, beginning with her children first.

For that task, the conspirators had already hatched a sinister plan at the table, as they lunched together that afternoon. All of them shared the responsibility to execute it to the last letter as scrutinized by their leader.

Soon, they busied themselves in action. Maggie was coaxed indoors with a few pieces of chapatti. Totally oblivious, she was led on the garden path. Oh! What a pity! She made a grave mistake. Poor Maggie relied on their fake generosity. What followed was swift and snappy. Maggie was trapped and bolted behind the doors.

No sooner did they arrest Maggie, than they turned to her children. Even the hearts, that were hardened on her earlier, began melting as they tucked the little ones in jutes and loaded in a rickshaw. Two guards on either side, they took the innocents away.

Helpless Maggie’s heart would have burst into pieces if she were to see her beloved ones, destined to the panchmahabhutas. But the matter became worse when she was let free. She restlessly sniffed to and fro, searching for a glimpse of her little ones. She cried and sighed bitterly. But, they had gone where she could not reach. What was put together was now asunder. All those who were in the field witnessed her fate. Even the hearts of the executioners would have changed if they had seen her agony.

Time passed by. Maggie’s red blood still turned into white milk. ‘Time’ failed to stop it. But, sadly, a few of her babies might have starved to death, while others have been crushed under tires. How she did compensate for her distress was a mystery. How strange it was! Maggie was still simple enough to forgive them and take refuge in them. “Was Maggie practicing the gospel values?” I wondered.

A few days later, the Maidan troop was to go for an evening outing. The bus was ready, and all stepped towards it. Her motherliness did not keep Maggie from bidding ‘Good Bye!’ to them. She approached the vehicle. At that very moment, the devil entered into a prankster's soul. Alas! Had she known if it was her life! The second half of Maggie’s tragedy began. She fell out of the frying pan into the fire.

Maggie was shut in immediately. Perturbed, she laid herself down in a corner of the bus. For the troop, it was a joyful day. But, for Maggie, it was the day to go through the rest of her tragedy. Knowing her forthcoming doom some empathized with her. But, for some, it was a reason to mock her. When the bus neared Moksha dam, they found a place where there were few signs of human existence. “ Ah! This is the ideal place to abandon her,” some thought. Foreseen what would happen to her, many interrupted. But, it was in vain. The next moment, the bus reached a grinding halt, and its doors were snapped open. Maggie was pushed out. No sooner did Maggie step on the road, than they shut the doors on her. The bus speeded up. She chased it desperately. How sad it was! Unfortunate Maggie failed to keep phase with the bus. Almost all watched her run, through the windscreen. All the hearts sank, as they pounded with sighs of pain. “Canine motherhood was indeed painful,” I acknowledged silently.

At that very second, they succeeded in their plot, and Jaina troop jettisoned their annual visitor, she-dog Maggie, hopefully, forever.

Definitely, this time Maggie must have chased the bus, not searching for her lost children, but for the children who nursed her after the tragic loss of her dear ones. Indeed, all she wanted was, to say a few words of thanks, and be grateful to them. But, had they understood it? No, in the blink of an eye, they were out of her sight.

But, were they really successful? Four months have passed since that fateful day, and Maggie’s tragedy has taken a new turn now. Walking all the miles away from Moksha Dam barefooted, Maggie had come to Jainas again, practicing her utmost Maitri. This arrival of Maggie had filled the native troop with owe as well as guilt. Surely, the tragedy is no more Maggie’s now, but Jainas'. All the more, shocked and defeated were her executioners.

Monday, 23 October 2006

The Birth Certificate - Short Story

The Birth Certificate

            The evening sun had already set westwards, and the tumult on the road lessened. “Iranbur,” the bus conductor screamed out. Kavita opened her bleary eyes. As she rushed to get down, the child in her lap began to cry. Putting her puckered breast in the child’s mouth, Kavita peeped around to make sure of her destination.
In the dark exhaust of the bus, she stood there alone with her child, fanning the air with her sari. Her uncertain eyes glanced around as the bus moved ahead. When the whirring of the bus faded away, the whole locality turned into a gloomy graveyard. A strange feeling of helplessness overwhelmed her, and she began to bite her sari-end faster than she ever did.
Kavita stood motionless. The unwanted memories of yester months invaded her mind. She contemplated the scraggy face of her child and grabbed it to her bosom tightly, as if to compensate for her distress. She quickened her weary steps along the interior path, between secluded, posh bungalows, until she found herself at a huge, iron gate. By the light of the nearest lamp post, Kavita could barely read the board that was nailed to the right gate pillar, “No.111, Mr. Ka-r-thi-k, s-o-n of MP, Mr. Sh-e-k-ar.”
As she read the first name on the board, Kavita became thoughtful, and fragments of the unwanted memory drifted through her mind again. Troubled and excited, she leaned on to the gate pillar and rang the bell twice.
A buxom maid with a chequered apron rushed to the gate. “ She must be the new servant after me”, reflected Kavita. Her tousled hair added a new weariness to her old age. The maid flashed her curious eyes at the woman behind the gate at that unusual time, with a child in her arms. As she unlocked the gate, she had ample opportunity to glimpse at the face of the innocent and exhausted Kavita, though she stood against the light. Feeling pity for the child, the maid took Kavita in immediately, and let her wait for the owner.
The servant woman’s sympathy awakened in Kavita a painful thought. “Is she of my clan? Is she a Dalit?” she wondered.
Kavita walked up to the parlour carefully, as if she had stepped into an unknown place. She sat down on the lowest step at its entrance, as a fatigued cow lies on the ground. As the darkness thickened, the cry of the crickets intensified and the gloom enveloped her again. The moths around the ceiling light, kept company with Kavita, as if they had understood her plight.
Kavita desperately searched for a familiar sight. But there was none. Everything had changed. Except one - the picture of a wild wolf devouring an innocent lamb. That was still on the wall. When Kavita saw it, she was startled and strove hard to control the anger that surged in her. But, the instant cry of the child brought her back to the present.
It was half past eight. Kavita heard the traumatizing stroke of the parlour clock in the distance. A strange horror overcame her, as she saw a vehicle, its lights glaring. Breaking the sombreness of the night, a jeep speeded up to her and came to a grinding halt. Her heart raced. Trembling with fear, she got to her feet unawares. She saw the person with glittering shoes getting down from the driving seat. It was Mr. Karthik, son of an MP. A young woman in a short skirt with painted lips got down from the other side. She darted across the parlour. Her high heels clicked and the ornaments jingled as she swung her hips. Even though she took no notice of Kavita, the latter knew that the woman was not the wife of Mr. Karthik.
No sooner did the gentleman in white kurta see Kavita, than he burst out with his usual vocabulary, “Wild bitch, why have you come here?” Kavita’s whole body stiffened. She pressed the infant against her dried breast firmly, as if to prevent it from listening to those invectives.
Even though she was innocent, she had no courage to face that fiendish nature. Ten months ago, Kavita had hardened her heart to save a life from abortion. Today, she was sentenced to utter helplessness. Her feeble voice began to tremble. “Sir, I came to get your signature on this child’s birth certificate,” she cried.
The defence tactics worked very well in the political ring. But, that was a strange and weighty one for him to tackle at that hour. He became restless and furious. “Signature? Get it from him who slept with you. There are no fathers here for harlot’s children. Get out of my sight, you dirty………”
Kavita was dumb-founded at those irresponsible words. She opened her mouth to cry, “Sir, it is you!” But she was late. Two cowardly hands had already caught her throat.
Hearing the strangled cry of Kavita, the servant woman came running to the parlour, and was baffled by the sight. When the man saw the maid, he freed Kavita, and she fell to her knees like a withered flower. She hugged her child against her face and sobbed. The man frowned at the maid and spat on the ground. Thundering across the parlour, he banged the door shut on Kavita.
Moved with compassion, the servant woman dragged Kavita into her cottage, and Kavita poured out her past before her.
Trapped by the mockery of fate, Kavita was the eldest of four children in a family, in which there was neither father nor husband. Her father had deserted them when they were small. She never went to school. When she was eight, she began her loathsome career as a servant. Today she was fourteen. Ten months ago, her penniless mother got her employed in that No.111. As Kavita remembered that detestable night when she was locked behind the doors, her eyes sank in bitter tears. That unfortunate night, the poor lamb was hunted, and the greedy wolf had satisfied himself. From then on, she became nobody to everyone. Her own mother deserted her, cursed her and chased her away. But as her womb became heavier and heavier, she became somebody to someone. A mother to a child and a protector of life! She realized that she was wanted again.
When Kavita was half way through her story, she paused for a while and thought, “Wanted? By whom?” A deafening silence prevailed in the cottage. Suddenly, she rose up with determination. She screamed at the closed door of Mr. Karthik, “Sir, you’ve already signed the certificate. This child carries your blood. He is no more a Dalit. He is a Brahmin. He has a glorious future”. Kavita burst into triumphant tears as she hugged the child tightly. The servant woman was bewildered at her sight. Mr. Karthik opened the door, shocked and defeated.
Kavita hurried down the steps. Having parcelled her only meal for Kavita’s journey, the maid gave it to her and kept looking at Kavita’s frail silhouette, until she disappeared into the darkness of the night.

Saturday, 24 September 2005

ඈ කවියකි
කඳුළු පිරිනු දෙනෙතින් යුතුව ඈ මේ ගයන්නේ
කඳුලින්ම ලියැවුනු ඇගේම ජීවන කවියයි
එත් ඒ අනුකම්පාව අපෙක්ෂාවෙන් නම් නොවෙයි
ඈ නීතියේ සරණ අයදින්නේද නැත
නමුත්ඈ දහමේ පිහිට පතයි
ඒ තිරිසන් වුන මනුෂ්‍යයත්වය
සැබෑ මිනිසත් බවක් ගන්නා තුරුයි
ඇගේ කවිය අසන්න
මේ කවිදාගේ කවියයි...

මව් දෙතනේ කිරි උරා බොන දා 
ඈ අහිංසකාවියකි;
බැළ මෙහෙවරට යටවී තම බාළවිය ගෙවන්නට ඌයෙන්
ඈ බාළ මෙහෙකාරියකි;
සිප්කිරි නොඋරාම මුළුතැන්ගෙයක මල්වරවන දා
ඈ දාසියකි;
සුදන වෙස්ගත් දුදන පිපාසෙක ගොදුර ඈ වූයෙන්
ඈ දූෂණය කරනු ලැබුවෙකි;
බිඳුනු පතිවත රැගෙන දෙමාපිය සරණ සොයන කල
ඈ එපා කරනලද දියණියකි;
විශ්වාසයක් නැති නමුදු යුග දිවියකට ප්‍රිය කළ සද
ඈ අපිරිසිඳු භර්ය්‍යාව්කි;
එරිය යුතුමුත් තම දෙතනේ කිරි නෝඑරෙනා දා  
ඈ අම්මා කෙනෙකි;
නොඉවසුම්, අසංවර, තිරිසන් ආළය එපා කී දා
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